Roller coaster

My emotions are changing constantly.
One minute I am happy as can be.
The next I am irritable and frustrated.
Then I am at my saddest point in life.


It's a roller coaster of emotion. Up and down I go...


Lately I have been more down than up. I have separated myself from a great deal of people. I have this huge trust issue towards people who I once called my friend(s). I suppose it's because of the fact that many of those people who I let get close to me, hurt me, screwed me over, and/or let me down in a huge way. Lately, my boyfriend has been my only friend and the only person I have been able to trust. I am never bored with him, and I miss him when he's not around. But when he is at work, I find myself alone. More alone than I have ever been or felt. I wish sometimes I had one friend, a girl, who I could just call and go over and do nothing with. I don't. I have my boys of course, but they are not girls. It's not the same. I love my boys, but I need someone to talk about tampons and boyfriends with.

I used to have this "friend" who I could talk about that with. I used to have a few actually. But of course..screwed over.



Will you like to be my friend?



xoxo, Candy