Writers Block

Lately I haven't had the right words to express myself.
I kept finding myself bottled up in my thoughts; hours went by as I kept thinking and thinking.
I didn't write anything down, I just got lost in thoughts.
It isn't a bad thing, but I didn't feel the type of release I do when I write.

Summer session started.
I am actually excited about this session, Math 12 doesn't seem bad and I have an old co-worker in my same class.
It's so funny because we both quit our jobs due to our psycho boss, except he told her he had some internship, which he didn't.
And now I am trying to add a Health Science class just to boost up my GPA.

This fall I need to decide which schools I will be applying for to transfer for the fall of 2011. It's kind of surreal since it has been a rough path trying to complete my general education.

I do not have it easy when it comes to paying for school.
I literally had to gut wrench my father so he could cough of some money to help me.
It was hard but I had to do it.
I wrote him the most honest email I could have ever written.
I even cried when I sent it.

I am just glad it didn't affect the relationship we have been trying to establish.
I always wanted a dad and now I am just trying to have apart of him....it's hard believe me.

Father's day was especially hard for me. I didn't want to get out of bed but I pushed myself anyways.
I took my mom to Starbucks for brunch and then we saw Karate Kid.
She's been my mom and dad for the last 13 years...I celebrated her that day.

I love my dad...but he was not there. What am I supposed to do? Say thank you for missing out on all those years? I love him, I do. I just do not have that type of relationship with him.
He missed out on A LOT.

But that's life. Just have to keep moving forward and let the good times roll and be blessed with an AMAZING boyfriend who truly loves you for who you are.



Love you Nathan, can't ever say it enough!


blessings....whoever reads this. :P


xoxox, candy