Ridiculous and sad

I usually do not keep grudges for more than a few months. I get over situations and learn to keep peace in my heart and send those who hurt me with a "God bless you, goodbye".
This one is just way too hard.

I wonder how a person can be as evil as she is. Is her image *that* important to her, that she has to lie about the wrong she did to my boyfriend and I? The saddest part about the whole ordeal my boyfriend and I had to go through, is that she has convinced herself and others that she was the "victim" and she actually believes her own lies.

That to me is worse than death.

I have come to the conclusion to cut all ties with those who were "friends" with her and I. They simply do not know the CRAP (for a lack of better word) that Nathan and I had to go through for almost a year. They do not know the details in which she speaks about his private body parts and says that he is using drugs to enhance his physique.
THIS SICKENED ME. I felt betrayed, hurt, disgusted...I could not believe what I was reading. I did not want to believe it. Never in my life would I EVER talk badly about someone as she did. And I didn't even go into details because it, to this day, hurts me.

To someone who once made me believe they were a "friend", may GOD SERIOUSLY have grace on you. Even though you truly do NOT deserve it. Just like my mom said, your mom would be so disappointed. The sad thing is she probably would expect it come from you and sadly I expected it too. When it came down to it, you surely know how to put a mask over your ugly. You can fool those and show them what a "nice" person you are. But in the end, you are nothing but a fake, sad, person who needs to hurt others to feel better about themselves.

I am sorry that I found love and that he took my time away from our friendship. But seriously...you went too far.

And if you ever read this, I don't really care. But I am sick of being viewed as the "bad person".

God knows my heart and He knows who I am. He has always been on my side and will always be. For I know the LOVE He has to offer and the LOVE I give back.

Thank you Lord for slowly putting peace back into my heart.

The only other person I have ever held a grudge against was my dad's wife. Something I need to let go of, after 10 years....