Amazing

It amazes me. Your love. Your grace. It's wonderful, all You do for little me.
I have left Your sight so many times, yet there You are with arms extended.

Things were getting so bad...life was seeming hard, more than usual.
But Your grace shines so bright and Your love is so strong, I felt it in my heart. I felt the warmth. You are the only father I've ever had.


So I called the guy who helped my mom make me....most awkward conversation of my life. Felt as if I was talking to someone I just met the night before. It was so sad.
So I cried for 30 minutes while driving home after a long day in the desert.
I cried and cried like a child who just got a toy taken from them. I cried mostly out to God. I said, God, it has been 10 years. And the wound is so fresh it feels as if the scar was just made yesterday.
I said God, will the pain ever end? Will it scab up and eventually heal, with a marking to always have the memory only but not the pain? Will that ever happen God?
So I kept crying, while driving, until I could contain myself.

Then I just asked God to take care of me, just as He always has done. He guided me home through the face full of tears and ruined make up.

God, you are amazing.



Blessings,

Candy